An Introspection :

''I am sorry I loved you. I am sorry I let you in my life. I am sorry that I let you touch me. I am sorry that I  spoke about your level of cheating to everyone  we knew .


You made sure that everyone I had in life knew about each and every intimate moment I had spent with you . And some people made sure that I 'paid the price' for it.

Some people took the liberty to try and wrong me and justified themselves by saying that "she has done it before" or "well she is impure" and blah blah.

But I don't blame them. They just stepped on the broken glass that you smashed on the floor. If I would have broken your heart ,that's what you would have  told them all. You broke me, my soul, and my inner self.

Every ounce of me hated me. But no ounce of me hated you. It still doesn't. Because you were never meant to matter I guess.

You were never the companion I would choose for my life's long journey. You were not someone I can trust with my secrets. You were not someone who can listen and not judge. You were not someone I could grow with.


I may have been physically intimate with people but the connection of the mind still seems absent. And trust me, I did try to look for it in our relationship for 11 long months. But I could not and it's not my fault.

So everything that you have done can't be forgotten. I won't let myself forget it. In fact, it was such a blessing in disguise. You made me realise that I was swimming oceans for people who won't cross bridges for me.

You made me realise that love is not what you see but it's what you feel. You made me realise that love doesn't hurt but it heals. You made me realise that you're not the one for me.

To find a soulmate is like house hunting. You can rent it and you temporarily stay in it but you won't settle until you step into a structure of the same material of sand and cement but a different feeling called "home".

So thank you my ex. I have little hatred towards you and this is my closure.

- the girl who wasn't my cup of tea.

#Akkarbakkar

Vysh -

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